Clean, hollow, light...and utterly painful! But with two days to go, measures must be taken!

Wow! Well, its almost two weeks since i started. I feel as though i ought to have done more. You know eaten less, exercised more but we will just have to wait until results in on Tuesday.


Quickly, i hope you like the picture! It wasnt going to, but its going to go in the motivational quotes album, if anyone wants to copy it.

It always seems so easy when you say 'Why didnt i just not eat that? Why didnt i just not eat?'. But man its hard not to eat even for one day!

I have done it before but i forgot how bad it feels to begin with. I've had pains all day and this evening i couldnt sit still because it hurt so much.

Today has been TRES TRES SUCESSFUL! YAY! IM HAPPY ABOUT IT!

My family went out today to see our extended family a few hours away. As i wasnt up, they left me behind. I wanted to be left behind, thats why i stayed asleep. I eventually woke up around 2pm. Then i began to create my new site (i will get to that bit later!). At 3pm, i decided i better make lunch just so mum thought i'd eaten something, then i'd bin it.

Its such an exact procedure to making sure it looks as though you've eaten. I had to cook the jacket potato so they could smell it when they came in. Make sure the end of the cheese slab was grated so it looked as though id had some. Move the salad bits around and cut bits off so it looked as though id had some. I put it all on my plate and made it and cut it up as if i was going to eat it. Reason? so that when i left my plate in the sink, it looked as though i had actually had a meal off of it. But dont forget to put some scraps in the bin, because who eats every single bit off their plate? I cut myself a piece of cake and put it in the black binliner with the lunch i hadnt eaten. Left all the dirty stuff into soak so it looked as though id eaten. Then emptied my bin ontop of the uneaten food so i had an alibi for the black bin liner in the bin outside. Voila! Its not easy...

Anyway, so that was lunch. Then came the hard part. My family came home and after two hours decided to have tea. I acted casual and said id had a big lunch and would have a soup if i really got hungry. My mum still made me sit there at the table as they munched their way through shepherds pie and chicken kievs (not together!lol). It was agony. Then i had to sit there through pudding as well. But i stayed fast.

It has been the evening that has been the worst. From that point i have stayed in my room and avoided the kitchen. I have been spending that time beginning my 'link on' site to this one called the calorie bible. It is because i cant fit all of the foods and nutritional info in the way i wanted onto this site. It would be too cluttered.

You can see it now. It only has the home page and A to B of the fruit and veg but if you want to take a look:

www.freewebs.com/caloriebible

So, ive only come off of it in the last few hours. Suddenly my stomach started being criplingly agonising and so i had to go onto the thinspiration site for support because i was dying for an ice cream.

I think im over it now.... .... lol!

Heres todays calorie layout:

MEAL FOOD CONSUMED CAL

Breakfast
Nothing 0kcal

Lunch
Nothing 0kcal

Tea
Nothing 0kcal

Snack
4 x pieces of gum 20kcal
2 x diet pepsi drinks 0kcal

TOTAL 20KCAL

Now, my lame excuse for not exercising was because the gym was closed today and i got up late. But i suppose there is no excuse really. As my calories were low today, its ok but i will definitely go to the gym tomorrow. If not for the calories (which it will most certainly be for), then for the hot water, because our boilers getting fixed and we wont have hot water for 2 days and they have a shower up there! lol.

Tomorrow will also be a day when i go to meet mum for lunch with my sister. Cue awkward situation - I dont want to friggin eat. I might say that i will have a soup back home. Im sure mum will huff though!

Anyways, must go as im parched!

Keep up your good work whichever way it leans,

Poppy xoxo