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I still managed to stay under 300kcal!
It was hard and i have had to tackle more obstacles than usua; today, but i did it! I know its only a mole hill on the journey of climbing a mountain, but i still feel proud of todays achievement!
Today was a relatively simple day. I knew i would be at work for most of it so would have no problems with distraction or 'fitting things in'. I also knew i would do one gym session later in the day - there was no option of anything else because there were no aerobics classes today and it was too late to go to the pool. This was, in retrospect, the best day, then, to start the new number crunching system.
Getting up at 7.30am (yep! ouch!) was just yucky, because i had only had 4 hours sleep the night before, and very little energy. I was planning on walking to work and wanted enough time so that i got there early for my job review. My mum came into my room and by the time we had talked it was late and she gave me a lift to work.
The talk i had with mum was nothing significant, i cant even remember what it was about. But my mind kept drifting over to the spot where, a night ago, i had pulled back my sheets to reveal a gap between my bed and the wall, and discovered all my binge food wrappers had been cleared away. Not only that, but my negative calorie foods book i bought was lying on my sheets! I keep feeling as though she is storing it all up like a human vesuvius and one of these days the scales of deduction will tip, she will figure out whats going on with me and blow her top! But in many ways i think she subtly knows but i reserving comment and standing back to see how bad it gets.
So, i go to work and have a crap time at it. My boss chats on the phone while i clean the freezers, she then turns to me and says 'hurry up! You're taking forever!'. The cheek! Anyway, enough of that. Work was work and thats the end of it.
The only other thing i will mention about it is that this was where i first encountered food probs. My boss bought a pack of cheese straws and said you better have some otherwise i'll eat them all. It was more an order than a question. I knew if she deliberately saw me take none she would ask why and her big mouth would not be able to let go of it (sorry - im bitter about her atm if you havent guessed! lol). She turned her back for 5 minutes and i made sure to avoid them in that time. When she turned back and asked if i'd had any, i said i'd had two. Thus she did not bother me.
For lunch i ate nothing and sat on the wall outside. That is how i overcame my first hurdle! Yay!
God! I ought to break this blog up into chapters its so long! lol.
After work i declined a lift up to the gym and walked there. More exercise i thought! Up there it was dead and i was the only one in there - heaven! I even streached myself to a fast run for a few minutes on the treadmill but slowed down after that and took it at intervals.
My outlook towards tea this evening had been bright, as there was some uncertainty about when they were going to have it, and given the lateness of my return i had hoped to avoi eating it, and sup on half a soup. Unfortunately not the case...
On my way back i phoned to annouce my return (!) and was told that there was too much beef so to eat with the rest of the family would be preferable. I didnt huff my disappointment down the end of the phone and just agreed. You may be wondering why i agreed so easily? It was because the tea was a weight watchers recipe consisting of 3/4 carrots and peppers, some beef strips and a little splash of soy sauce. It added up to just over 200kcal - not as threatening as if i had come home to cooking pizzas or anything!
For tea i enjoyed a small controlled portion of the sesame beef (as its called), and refrained from the rice as always! It was quite enjoyable though i always worry that things that taste stronger have more calories in them. I get the immense urge to spit them out and the beef was quite strong i was sure it was loaded. So i looked at the packet and it was not.
Then came pudding. This was the surprise that jumped unexpectedly out at me. My parents had bought a apple and blackberry pie! nooo! I was asked if i wanted a piece and immediately imagined the soft pastry melting into the sugary apples. I dithered between want and restraint. Instead i settled with 'im not sure. perhaps i could have a plate and will decide in a bit'. When i relocated back to my seat in the garden where the pie had been dished out, a plate with a quarter slice of pie had been pushed in front of my seat.
I sat there looking at it and when asked if i wanted it i said 'nah. actually im ok. i dont like this pie that much, its too crunchy'. God - it was painful to watch my family eat theirs and have my own steaming away in front of me. Eventually i was relieved of the burden of having to state at it, as my mum and sister shared it out. Tea was finally over!
Now ive been on here for a few hours and also have some eventful news about this site which i want you to spread high and low:
!!NEW TO THE SITE!!
Instant messaging forum - The Shoutbox!
It means you can talk to anyone else INSTANTLY on there at the time and share tips and motivation on how to over come difficulties you may be facing.
Please give it a try and get the conversation rolling!
So, its pretty much just time for the round up kids! Here goes (remember its now in a new cal / exersize format):
CAL SECTION:
MEAL FOOD CONSUMED CAL
Breakfast
Nothing 0kcal
Lunch
Nothing 0kcal
Tea
small port. of ww sesame beef 220kcal
Snack
Nothing 0kcal
CAL FOOD TOTAL 220KCAL
EXERCISE CAL BURNED
1hr in the gym, hard workout 520kcal
walk from work 50kcal
CAL EXERCISE TOTAL 570KCAL
Right, just time to wrap up now! Running at 10am tomorrow! Me running - its almost an impossible thought and yet im going to do it! lol. Crazy!
ThAtS aLl FoLkS!
x + pOpPy - x
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