TOTAL LOST OR GAINED:
LOST 1LB
A pound! How rubbish is that?! Im so peeved off! I suppose at least i lost weight rather than gained but still! A POUND!!!
I'm hoping ive reached a very temporary plateau and will then double the weight loss next week. I can dream cant i?! lol.
But, i will now look forward to this week now! As for today, heres what happened:
I got up this morning and was absoloutely starving. i was just soooo hungry and didnt see past the morning. I travelled downstairs and firstly, went to grab an instant fix: low cal swiss roll. (this is so embarrasing for me to admit up to when you guys have probably been doing really well!) Then i poured myself half a portion of weetabix minis. I only ate half the bowl though. Then i started to think 'Bugger! I've already gone and eaten half my day's calorie allowance in the first hour of me waking up!'. So from that point i KNEW i would have to go to the gym.
I then got dressed and marched to work - at least that will be some calories burnt off! The rest of the day was spent on my feet rushing around the store (good for burning cals, good for time to go quicker, not good for feet!). I had to have a small taster around lunch because i hadnt tried that dish and we are encouraged to try as many dishes as possible that we sell in the shop. That was when my boss said she was worried about me because i didnt seem to be eating. She said '...and you wont lose weight because your body goes into starvation mode'. Ha ha! If only she knew what i was losing! lol
I went and sat outside on my lunch break - it was sunny and my boss couldnt snoop on me then. I procrastinated on my piece of gum and drank a pepsi max. The day had sped by. I came back from lunch and before i knew it my day was over. Before i left i had to purchase a few items for my stepdad's birthday. I reached over and put a packet of fudge on the counter as well. I kept thinking to myself that i would store it and not eat it, but it was just an attempt at obscuring the inevitable from present view.
My stepdad picked me up and drove me to the gym and took the food back home. I had cleverly placed the fudge in my gym bag so he wouldnt take it home and get a surprise. It was only when i stepped into the toilets to change (im still not happy with changing in front of people), that i realised that i had left my shoes in the car. While they brought my shoes back, i found myself sitting on the floor on the cubicle with fudge in my hand c&s it into the toilet. It was awful and i just felt really angry with myself, despite the fact i didnt swallow it. I think i just felt that i had inadvertantly swallowed some of the calories even though i know i didnt. I had to stand by the toilet and flush it a millin times before i was able to stand outside to await my shoes.
When they came, i then only had 45 mins in the gym left. So i whizzed onto the machienes and managed to burn off 350kcals which isnt bad. I couldnt even finish my treadmill run because my stepdad came in to say he would be waiting outside. I went back home.
It was chicken in sauce tonight and i had known about it for a while. This means i had already worked out what portion size i would have, how many calories and if i would have anything with it. I refused the chips and only had a meduim portion of chicken with veg. I didnt have any pudding either.
Then my sister informed me that my bridesmaids dress had arrived for my mums wedding in october. (CONTINUINTY NOTE: i call my mums fiance my stepdad because then it makes it easier to explain and takes up less word space!) My mother had forced me to buy the original size i was when i began this (i believe im a size lower now- i will know for sure tomorrow). I was so angry and was tempted to say that if i had to be that size, i wouldnt be a bridesmaid. The only reason ive agreed to it is because i know i will lose more weight before the event and they will have to bring the dress in.
Then ive been in my room for the evening! Thats pretty much it!
Tomorrow im going shopping for shorts (thank god im doing it on my own). Im so nervous about the birthday dinner in the evening because everyone else will be having pudding and cake and i cant because it pushes it too near my 300kcal boundaries.
Right, im afraid im not very talkative today. Its almost 4am here and im supposed to be getting up at, like, 8am. Bummer!
Heres cal intake:
MEALS FOOD CONSUMED CAL
Breakfast
low fat mini swiss roll 101kcal
1/2 a 1/2 portion of weetabix minis 70kcal
Lunch
1 piece of gum 5kcal
pepsi max 0kcal
Tea
1/3 of a 2 portion of tarragon & orange chicken 135kcal
Snacks
75cl of water 0kcal
coq au vin taster 20kcal
TOTAL 336KCAL
now, exercise:
EXERCISE CALS BURNED
40 minute brisk walk 100kcal
45 mins in gym 350kcal
TOTAL -114KCAL
One last note:
ANA/MIA POLL
I had some great responses at the beginning, so to all those who filled those out early on - thank you!
But im actually REALLY DISAPPOINTED in the lack of responses im having now. Ive had zilch the past few days. Im not going to out the results out until i have a sufficient amount of responses back.
Please, please, please, if you havent done it fill it out - its only a few questions! If you know anyone who has an ED then ask them to fill it out. Any other suggestions as to how we can boost the polls publicity up then let me know on the 'your voice' page - all comments will be apprieciated.
Thanks
Have sweet dreams, then purge them...
*P*o*p*p*y*
BPM: My bpm for today is 61bpm.
Lowest bpm this week is 58bpm
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