I'm sorry it was so long between the last blog and this one. It's just that things kind of went a bit crazy food-wise and now, today its jammed back into it's rhythm again I feel more able to come and write to you all.
It wasn't that it was ever out of rhythm, it was just that i was in the more mia frame of mind as the days went on, and then today it has corrected itself.
I'm not going to sit here and do individual blogs for the next few hours because i think it would seriously take that long! lol. But i will give you a brief overview of the last four days. On the first day i was gutted because i 'tripped' food-wise and purged a little. Then on the next day i did worse and purged again. On the third day i was in torment when i did it again and this time it was a serious purge. Today has been like a splash of cold water to the face. It's been a good'un!
So... CIRCLE 1 - Tuesday
I hardly ate anything but, of course, i slipped up at night. I think, if i remember rightly, i ate a biscuit. I felt so awful for it and immediately tried, despite the fact i find bakery hard, to purge it up. Sucess.
On to... CIRCLE 2 - Wednesday
Sorry these are so short, but i really can't split the days apart. I stick to the no breakfast, no lunch rule but it makes things harder later on. I had weighed myself after the day before and found i'd actually lost a bit. However, despite this reprise at my bad eating the day before, i still greedily pigged out on more biscuits and crackers later in the evening. I purged them too.
Lastly... CIRCLE 3 - Thursday
This day i remember well. That's because i weighed myself and hadn't gained anything. So, that meant i had been let off twice by some miracle and refused to tempt fate my way again. As usual, i didn't eat breakfast or lunch. I went to meet my mum in the nearby city and managed to whizz and do some shopping. I had managed to go into Thorntons and buy a box of chocolates as a gift to my ex-work collegues without getting anything for myself. But before i left, i found legs leading me in the direction of another chocolate shop.
It sounds absurd to say that it was like i had no control and that in my head i HAD to buy the chocolate. It was a compulsion and as much as i was chanting 'i shouldn't' in my head, i still did it. This is typical mia thinking. So i bought 2 large bars and a packet of chocs. So by the time i got home my family was almost home.
I ate the chocolate and purged it. But i got a really painful stomach (like the kind you get when you've swallowed too many laxies). I told my mum i wouldn't have tea so saved myself stuffing myself with more crap. I stayed in my room and just let it pass. By the time it had, everyone was going to bed. Even though i didn't feel the slightest bit hungry, i still opened the chocolates i had meant to give as a gift the next day. After stuffing those, i did the same - purged. Then slept.
COOL OFF- Today / Thursday
So today, i had to bring out the whip and get to grips with the days before. Firstly, i decided i couldn't have that much luck on a third time and stepped onto the scales. Result! Since my last weigh in on the Tuesday, i'd lost 2lbs! I decided i wasnt going to give the scales an excuse to creep back up so i didnt eat breakfast or lunch. After 1pm, i got a lift to the supermarket and bought my tea (veg soup) and another box of chocs for my old workplace. Then my grandma drove me down to my old workplace and went. After chatting for a bit i started walking home (btw. i DID give them the chocs before you start worrying! lol). So by the time i got home i had blisters on my feet because of a bad choice of footwear and id had to lug two bags of straw and a bag of frozen food back! but i made my self feel better by the fact that carrying the bags was working my muscles!
For tea i had half the soup and, i'll admit, half a roll. I'll tell you now, it'll be so much easier when there are no carbs about. When im away, at least i won't be buying it, therefore eating it!
So that's pretty much it for the last four days! not much, huh?
Here's my calories for today:
FOOD SECTION:
MEAL FOOD CONSUMED CAL
Breakfast
Nothing 0kcal
Lunch
Nothing 0kcal
Tea
half veg soup 115kcal
half roll 122kcal
Snack
nothing 0kcal
Drinks
diet coke 1kcal
small glass ribena no/sug 4kcal
TOTAL CALS CONSUMED 242KCAL
EXERCISE SECTION:
I'm not including the walk because that was basic, and pitiful if its all i can put in as exercise!
As for my weigh-ins, i wasn't sure what day i should start posting them up again. It was originally Tuesday, so i did weigh myself on the Tuesday just gone (lost 4lbs). But i've decided to move weigh in day to Thursday, to keep from messing up the system of WEEKLY weigh ins. So, we'll start with today's weigh in:
LBS GAINED / LOST:
6LBS!
Yes! I'm almost halfway now until im back at my lowest since i started. I've just got to keep on pushing, and who knows, hopefully it wont take a full month for the rest to drop off!
Please give me feedback on my blogs since i never know if you're all liking them or not and if they are at all useful.
BIG NOTE ON TOMORROW! - I am returning to Uni tomorrow and am moving in to a new halls. You can request internet but it's not automatically there, and you have to pay extra for it. So, i might not be able to do a blog tomorrow but i'll get on as soon as possible.
In the meantime, please fill my guestbook - i do check every day!
PoPpY xOxXox
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