Pizzas, pilavas and party dresses!

Yes! My first day back at the gym! It feels great and my stubborness is finally paying off as i forced myself onto higher levels and faster speeds! However this triumph was slightly spoiled by the fact i ate a piece of pizza later on.


In my defense over the pizza thing, i wasnt going to eat any. I had concucted this plan and told my mum i was going out with a friend. Then i would go out for the time when tea would be served and go to the gym to lose more calories - it would be killing two birds with one stone/

However, the plan fell through so i had to have tea at home. To make it worse it was pizza, so i was hoping that when offered pizza i would say no. However my mum just went ahead and dished them out. So luckily i denied myself the second slice, i mean fo the calories one was more than enough! ew!

So i took some laxitives to get rid of it. Now im just going to have a short diatribe on the laxitive debate: It is hard when you have just eaten something you shouldn't have and can't purge or go and exercise it away, laxitives (altought their effects are debated) provide a slim hope for those desperate enough to give them a go. This little hope is better than no hope at all.

Ah! rant over!

As for the dress i spoke of above, I have had my eye on a gorgeous red halterneck dress from monsoon for ages but it has recently gone out of line. So i found one on ebay and there was no more being sold. It was two sizes under what i am but i thought that was perfect motivation. I AM going to wear it at my 21st.

THIS IS MY NEXT GOAL!

I sucessfully tried to convince my mum that i AM eating by putting weetabix in a bowl with milk, throwing away half of it then leaving it by the sink so she thought i'd had breakfast.

Here are my cals for the day:

MEALS FOOD CONSUMED CAL

Breakfast
nothing 0kcal

Lunch
pepsi max 0kcal

Tea
1 piece of pizza 150kcal
salad 35kcal
pepsi max 0kcal

Snacks lemon fudge 500kcal
NOTE: by the way, this is really hard to be this honest. I was so convinced i was going to lie to you about having more fudge but i have thrown it away now so must be honest to all of you and strong.

Oh, sorry, didn't you hear me, yes, even after what i said about not doing it i have THROWN AWAY THE FUDGE! lol

Anyways...

EXERCISE CAL

1hr 15min hard gym workout 470kcal

So, when taking the cals burnt from the cals eaten, it works out as...

215kcal!

So, even though i feel absoloutely crap about eating it (which i wont anymore cos ive thrown it), at least i stuck to my 250kcal a day thing.

Anyways, short blog today as i have work in a few hours then an evening out at a pizza place! argh! god help me! No more fooooood! lol :z

Byzee Bye,

Poppy